Blog description:I have cold right now. Was just looking at some profiles and I am laughing to myself because I just don't see how this is supposed to work. I mean I am terrified of hal-- no more than half of the guys that I see on here. I feel so pessimistic--*shaking head*. I've been married so, I don't thnk it would bother me as much to be alone if I had never married at all. And all you guys that write stuff like "she must be open to polygymy..." you make me feel so much better. I am so happy I don't have that need. Sometimes I think men are cursed.
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And I don't mean the part time or fakies... They're all so Holy in the public but in private they are a jerk . Oh the LOUD ones that Feel like Shouting would get their point across
Nor the Western one that feel like Islam is a mere religion and no one can judge them when they are doing wrong but accept them as is.
Nor the ones that judge and start marking up stuff they think is Haram but at the same time make what is Haram right.
But the true simple quiet muslim man that's just smiles at a joke instead of being Loud and over bearing (SP). The ones that wakes up in the middle of the night and make Tahajud during and after Ramadan.
The ones that's sweetly intimate with their wife and in the end makes Gusel (SP) and make two rakats prayer before going to bed.
The ones that help out around the house instead of waiting and watching ther spouse do all the work
The ones that set up time to read Quran for more then an hour. If married they'll read Quran with their wife.
The ones that supports and provide for his family fully.
The ones that would drikr Allah not only after prayers but through out the day.
How appealing are these Men and sadly how few exsist today.
Forget about looks and wealth but look at his deen.. His spirituality.
Does he follow the ways of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW) or not?
(I'm not the author if this, but oh did this sister take the words right out of my mouth!)
I'm so stressed right now. I know everybody is stressed, but this is almost more than I can bear. I thought I could handle the stesses of life, but now I really see how much my ex-husband's emotional support helped me through it all. I have nobody now and it's beyond my comprhension. I mean how do you make it without anyone on your side?
I know this life is a test, a trial, but do you even have a chance if you have to take the burden all on your own. I pray all the time and I am so grateful for what I have,but sometimes I really wish I had someone that loved me so much they just want to take care of me. I know I have the potential to give that to somebody.
I was talking to my mother a few moments ago and I can't even open up to her. I don't think it's right to burden her with my problems. She always says she will make duaa for me and I guess that's enough. Still I wish there was someone that I could completely open up to and could feel secure that they loved me unconditionally.
I heard someone once say "Just lay your head on my shoulders".. maybe it was in a song-- I don't know-- but that's just the nicest thing, you know...... hmmmm* drifts off to daydream about strong shoulders to rest on*.
Okay, I'm back. Alhamdulilah for the air that I breath-- just another oppertunity for everything good; another day for redemption. I have to remember that. It's so hard sometimes. When I drove past a cemetery today for the brief second I wished I could switch places. astufurllah.
Anyway, I was at the MVA today (yes, I should have been at work..) so I'm sitting there and this guy is sitting a few seats away from me and and he's just so cute. Anyway, he's really into his girlfriend (all the while checking me out--- men are sooo funny..hehehe) and I'm just baffeled because she is so NOT cute * I never get that....*
I once read that "the whys and hows are never asked for the emotions of the heart. Adoration and love are miracles, small gifts from God." After seeing that couple all I'm thinking is ..hmmm, isn't that the truth. Ok. So lets pray for a miracle.
May Allah (swt) bring us a wonderful, pious, adoring spouse that we may love and will love us without end. ammeen.