do you think its hard to turn down your non muslim friends whene they get you to do somthing that is against muslims

I think the same way too. But we have rules to follow in islam. that rules is set a boundaries between the good and bad. If your hearts follows one of it then it will lead you to another story.

But basically, as a human being and as a servant of Allah, we obviously aware of what is allowed and what is not allowed in islam.

Yes I do, personally I want to be my own person and not follow anything or anyone. I know what you must be going through, but in the end you have to do what is the most comfortable to you