Ziad - I read you post and your profile and I know the sadness you know. I am Christian and understand the feelings you have. Just remember, God, Allah, made us all and He makes no mistakes. We are made to love and to do good with our lives and if we do that we will please Him. I am moving to Saudi soon and wish you were closer so I could meet you in person. I would like to email with you and become your understand friend/brother. Mark