Sounds to me like you've really had a very terrible relationship(s) in the past.

Not all men are like that, some are, most
are not. I don't know who hurt you or why they did but it is a shame. I wish you sucess in finding a good man.

Actually I don't think I can be
a good husband any more, but I
can be a good companion. Does
that count? My situation is
now different from men. I am
blessed to walk between those
worlds?

if you are a really good man,ready to give 100% from you then you are ready,because woman love a man that give everything,man always ask woman for everything and then Thai woman have to give and give,but what about you man?if you want a really good wife then give every thin if not then go away and keep playing with you toys at home wen you got mature come out side here in this world are many good woman way ting for a real good man,god bless you